uhhh live journal

Date:	2005-08-03 20:06
Subject:	in my mess of a trailer trash life
Security:	Public
Mood:	lazy
Music:	tegan and sara

so i dont even own a vcr, i dont have a couch... i have an air matress that has been sitting there for two months, suprisingly enough i havent even changed my hair since being in school, there are people that change it every week, i am afraid though, i dont want to end up with no hair. ive been finding myself doing nothing resulting in me feeling depressed, resulting me in wanting to buy anything from nordstrom. fortunately for myself i have free expanded cable tv, the style network always seems to know just how im feeling, so i turn to it in dark times, aka... everyday when i get home from school at 5. school is a life.

Date:	2005-03-02 23:31
Subject:	shanna i have no idea what made me think of that one time...
Security:	Public
Mood:	drained
Music:	tic tock

i remember the statement that later lead to an argument on whether or not nailing ones own penis to a board is art. i think that this is rediculous to be disgussed. but if someone decides to do that themselves it can be whatever they want it to be, retarded, or meaningful, but when it becomes a matter that is disgussed i think that it is no longer art, because it holds no value to the viewers, it just becomes morbid for that individual to do so as viewed by the viewer.

Date:	2005-01-08 04:24
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	sick

there is some saying about christmas in july but we are having november/december in january
my gums are in poor condition
1)BRUSHING CAUSES BLEEDING
2)FLOSSING CAUSES BLEEDING
3)EATING SOME FOODS CAUSES BLEEDING
4)FLOSSING CAUSES BLEEDING
5)THE GUMS AROUND MY DEAD TOOTH ARE A DIFFERENT COLOR

this much snow is unnecessary

Date:	2004-12-21 11:13
Subject:	fuck
Security:	Public
Mood:	frustrated

my car got broken into last night i am kindof upset about it especially since i get more upset each time i realize that something else was in there and it was taken.
my portable cd player
my favorite old shoes
i think my hair cutting sheers
my black hoodie
my school bag
MY LANYARD
jumper cables
tool set
air pump
flashlight
jeans

o but thank god that they didnt take my coheed and cambria cd then what would i have to listen to when i cut nicks hair????

the thing that i am most upset about are
hair cutting sheers
school bag
and tool box/jumper cables

hair cutting sheers- i need/like them and i need them to be able to cut hair
school bag- it has my assignments in it
tool box/jumper cables- these are things that my parents gave me as nice gifs and i feel bad that they are gone now because i dont think that i ever even used them

i guess i am going to get my window fixed tomorrow, there isnt much window even left

Date:	2004-12-14 07:32
Subject:	OMG
Security:	Public
Mood:	ecstatic

umm ashlee simpson tour tickets go on sale tomorrow at 10:00 am., ashlee will be stopping by february 24 in seattle
www.ashleesimpson.tickets.musictoday.com
that is where you need to go

Date:	2004-12-09 08:48
Subject:	you never believed me
Security:	Public
Mood:	horny

Take the quiz: "How big of a penis do you have?"

Your HUGE!


i suggest that everyone take this quiz because it will deffinetly effect your self esteem and your love life

Date:	2004-12-03 11:51
Subject:	now i have mixed emotions about buying shoes, and wearing them is an entirely different story
Security:	Public
Mood:	stressed

i remember when my best friend died. Cocoa was my cat that i had since i was 2 or three years old. I talked to her, i cried in front of her, and just like any other best friends, i told her my secrets. I only liked my cat and my cat only liked me. I think that this was a problem, because when she died i didnt know what to do. I never saw the body. When i went to Montana for about two weeks, she got soo bad my mom had to have her put to sleep. I knew that she was going to die when i was gone... and i even said goodbye to her before i left. It must have had been the anticipation of my mom telling me the news that made me soo sad. It was really quite traumatizing when i came home to no Cocoa, but would occasionally find some of her hair on a blanket or a piece of clothing that i hadnt worn for a while.

Things like/similar to this still bother me

the magazine clippings
that song
handwriting
the shit i haven't cleared off my couch
that dress
myself

Date:	2004-11-28 21:13
Subject:	i liked it because you were exited for me, now it doesnt work
Security:	Public
Mood:	shocked
Music:	the mars volta

my disinterest came across to you
just like everyone else
i made the effort
i made the call
" i just called to say i love you "
i meant it from the bottom of my heart
you took her favorite color
i took her friend
... pied piper, lead the rats out of town

Date:	2004-11-16 17:03
Subject:	it was ours
Security:	Public
Mood:	nostalgic
Music:	ashlee simpson (ofcourse)

the rhinestones
the string of pearls
yours or mine
the black wristband
lost, split in half
yours or mine
where did she go

Date:	2004-11-14 22:28
Subject:	remember
Security:	Public
Mood:	lonely

that day was close to perfect
the future was clear at the top
top of the world
where it never seemed to stay for very long
but managing to alway, eventually come around
those years of numbness could be put in permanent ruin

Date:	2004-11-14 04:30
Subject:	i miss you all
Security:	Public
Mood:	scared

i said goodbye to the sun at no o'clock today... sun where are you?

i know i dont update ever... i am at the library right now using their computer, i disconnected out computer at home to that my dad would take it to work and get it fixed but now that its diconnected still he does nothing. yesterday i hung out with nick and we watched "what dreams may come". i like that movie but i dont like how they portray hell, it was really stupid it kinda looke like the underworld or whatever in lord of the rings with masks and scary doooooodz. i am very grateful for the wonderful people that i have whom i care about. nick, i love you. hannah, you are my lotus. and ian, highfives AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i cant believe that this is going to be senior year "you have to be fashionable for senior year" (hannahs aunt) ITS YOUR LAST CHANCE! guys soo i am signing out with advice to love your friends and love your fashion in the school year 04-05

i got back from my trip with my dad yesterday, that was cool. ive officially decided on utah over california for school, i dont even like california. utah will cost 13thou and california would cost 27thou... ahhh shi... OK COOL SO A GUY TRYING TO CATCH A FRISBEE CRASHES INTO ME AND PEGS ME AGAINST A CHAIN LINK FENCE. that was probably the highlight of my day... SPEAKING of highlights what about the ones that i put in jeffs hair today, that was fun, thanks jeff for subjecting yourself to the practice of courtney glover.
HEY IF ANYONE WANTS TO BUY AVON LET ME KNOW BECAUSE I AM SELLING IT.
im not going to go running tomorrow, the team is doing some stupid bonding thing like OOO HEHEHEEHEHEHe lets get together, but i do want to go swimming, RE-al bad like. ummm wow
HANNAH WANT TO HANG OUT?
HANNAH WANT TO BUG YOUR DAD ABOUT HIS NEW GIRL FRIEND?
HANNAH (can you go to wallmart yet?)
uhhhh yeeeeah someone wants to hang out or have me dye their hair call me because i am probably just cleaning my room or watching TLC 954-6778



Arizona is beautiful, i might even bracket three it

rewind.play.rewind.play.
please don't copy and paste these words that i once heard
rewind.play.rewind.play.
please don't fill the body with a soul that is second best
rewind.play.rewind.play.
please don't fabricate an oppotunity for true happiness
rewind.play.rewind.play

Date:	2004-02-22 10:02
Subject:	what am i doing?
Security:	Public
Mood:	lonely
Music:	songs in the air

umm i look at my friends page almost everyday but never update my own journal, for some reason i have this idea in my head that is takes way to much effort to login, and the only difference is in typing my password, maybe its because my password is kind of long.
i found a really cool jacket for 3.99 yesterday and payed in cash.
i found a really cool bike yesterday for 39.99 and i am returning to purchase it today. i think that my bike it kind of dorky/awesome if you are 13, i mean it is a turquoise mountain bike how "swwwwweeet" is that?!
the bike i found is an old columbia its silver and has a blue seat and blue handle bars. i like.
i tried cleaning my room yesterday. i made progress. i tried cleaning the back of my car(sic). i made progress. i started to change the cat box, first by getting a plastic garbage bag, and then heading down stairs, and pulling it out from under where it is. and thats about as far as i got. i started a 2 hour side track project of sewing, and i was planning on making ONE patch for the awesome miami to see if ian liked them but it was soo much fun that i made i think ten of them. they have giraffes on them... i thought it was a good idea. after i was done with that i was going to change the cat box but i could not find the garbage bag, so i gave up and went to bed.

Date:	2004-02-02 01:09
Subject:	the air compressed out of my lungs
Security:	Public
Mood:	hot

i just got back from seeing thebloodbrothers, that was "neat". wow really fun, im supprised that i 1)maintained my spot in the front 2)didnt die trying 3)that im not in more pain that i am right now
umm it was really awesome ummmmmmmmm these arms are snakes played like 3 new songs and bloodbrothers played like 4 new songs.
portland driving is insane lanes end before the even begin. im glad that i dont have to drive here anymore, i guess im still going to my afternoon classes tomorrow even though we are driving instead of flying now. oo well i am just going to sleep the whole time anyway.
man alot of missed school when combining this and the 5 or six days that i am going to miss, ahaha! nine more days i think until hawaii, shi...
oo man i ate soo much today, it was really good/bad
i havent had that much food for a while, oo no i feel like i really have a gut now.
goodnight
the new these arms are snakes songs make me want to take off my clothes and walk through the streets while its raining outside.

Date:	2004-01-28 16:12
Subject:	IT HAPPENS!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	bored
Music:	figure8

umm i had math class today, umm how about doing math that ive already done before, i started wondering if i kept my folder form last year, that would be cool i could just copy most of the stuff that i understand. ummmmmmmmmmm i finished my painting... wait creepy eye diagram?? suspicious? shanna came over after school for a while, well she just left. im going to WORK OUT later today. ive also discovered that when i am hungry i like to watch the food channel. my room finally got... clean (enough for me) i need to get my camera fixed so that i dont have to use a crappy one for photo class. people complimented on my curly hair today, i dont know i dont really like it maybe people only like it because it is different and they dont understand that i take time to make my hair NOT look that way all the rest of the time.
IAN- what about cool things durring lunch
cool things=cool people

Date:	2003-12-23 10:34
Subject:	go around with anyone, but won't come down for anyone
Security:	Public
Mood:	weird
Music:	scotty g?

this morning i felt sick mu-vision was blurred i was hottttt muy muy caliente, dry heaves with only spit coming up, going in and out of thinking im ok and then feeling like shit, i thought that i was going to completly pass out like i did last year when i fell on my face and hit my tooth (gray tooth?) so i went to the doctors office and i had an EKG done? that was fun? the nurse saw my left boob. i think that she was more embarassed than i was, i wasnt embarassed at all actually, maybe the nurse got turned on... i dont know. i had two units of blood taken, i guess i should call them G-units of blood. yesterday didnt even count i was inside of a very "robin" haha egg blue colored house, i thought i was going to die. kristi judd probably won the coloring contest at sharis, it cost 3.13 cents to get 1 cup of decaff coffee (fafe?) today when i was sitting in the kitchen before i called my mom upstairs for help i thought, great shit this is perfect what if i am just sick while hannah is here the entire break cool. what if i were and astronaut, i could never be an astronaut.

Date:	2003-12-18 21:19
Subject:	one little two little three little cripples
Security:	Public
Mood:	nerdy

today in chemistry i made a snow globe with a miniture bunny inside. after school i went over to THE APPARTMENT and nick and i took his wheel chair to the mall, first it was nicks turn to wear the sunglasses and ride in the chair, dude so many people give you looks and are like especially nice and pollite. i bought jeans at zumiez, levis to be exact. i like them. and they like me back. after that it was my turn to ride in the chair. we went into sears to be more sneaky about the switch, while there in our presence was a shirt that read, "i cant help it that im a babe" good stuff man. while in an elevator full of people nick said that i could not be the manager of a store in the mall, "in my condition". me being at the time only having partial vision and no mobility in my legs. dude there were soo many people in wheel chairs at the mall though its like they were all hanging out together, maybe they are always there but you just dont see them/notice them. pay attention! the show rich girls is cool, spending money wait i mean bling is cool. having your entire face and all of your facial features imply a downward movement is cool. indycay. that never happened. im glad that i have painting class tomorrow. i like paiting, and i like bussinezzzz math because im all about the biznez. christmas break is cool, hannah sipe is cool, the movie honey staring jessica alba is probably cool as well(just hoping that it is still in theaters... maybe i will check online, this is crucial) good bye school goodbye sixth period fortythreedollars and 23/100